My First Blog Ever.....

and it feels like the first time I had sex. Nervous, no clue what to do and a bit awkward. I decided to start a blog because I am just overwhelming myself and I can no longer hide the complete truth to people who think they know me. They have no fucking clue who I really am. My best friends know me, and maybe a select few know what's going on, but in reality, not even my own mother knows who I am. To them I'm just a student, full time single mother, a hard working daughter, someone who takes her family's shit with a smile and although in the most intense pain, I ALWAYS have a smile on my face. How can I began to even to tell you the reader exactly who I am?? I know, I will go back about 4 years ago and tell you each story with each blog I write. They are a huge part of why I am who I am. They deserve their own page. I use to be a happy kid. What happened? Lots of bullshit happened. Life happened. An unusual life happened. Why did it happen? I have no fucking clue, but if this blog helps me deal with why it happened, then I will just fucking blog it. So here's my introduction. My name is Josie. I was born and raised in Oxnard, Ca. I love it here, but one day I will love to move to Seattle. I hate the sun. I am a full time single mom. Finally filed for legal separation after being separated from the sperm donor 3+ years. I suppose I finally got the balls and I was tired of people thinking they can take advantage of me. I am also going to school. I'm majoring in accounting and hoping that one day I can open up my own bakery, bar, or even a rehab for all unwanted animals. Weird I know, but you will quickly find out that I'm very random. With that said, I will soon post my first blog about my past that changed my life...the first time.