I really do try my best to keep a level head and not let anything keep me down, but it is hard when life will just not give me a break. It's been 4 years of misfortune and unhappiness. I have good days, when I feel optimistic and ready for a new chapter in my life. Then, it feels like life slaps me in the face with reality.
Time after time, just when it seems like everything seems to be going well, BAM! Some crap has to ruin it all. I'm sure it doesn't help that it is a bit harder on me because of the bipolar, anxiety, and depression.
I was so ready to get my legal separation finalized, but I have to go back on Tuesday. Didn't know they only saw 40 people in one day....that's it, one day. WTF? It doesn't take that long to help out with questions or paper work but whatever.
I've been waiting all month long for this day, and now they are making me wait 4 more days. Damn them. Not to mention my back is hurting so bad and I just got another set of health issues. Why???
I called my doctors, but of course, they are both closed on Fridays.
I think the worst part of all this is the money issue. I can't work because of my back, and whatshisface only gives us $140 a month in what he calls "fair" child support when he clearly makes over 2 grand a month. Wonderful. So now how can I afford groceries, insurance, gas, school, phone, meds, dr appts, and other things my son and I need. I am super frustrated with life today. Major. I know I will be ok, and I will work something out, I always do. Not to sound cocky, but I've survived 4 years of bullshit, so I'm sure I can keep on surviving. Somehow.....
As much as I feel like giving up and hate life right now, I know it'll be ok...eventually.
So for right now, FUCK YOU LIFE....but remember, tomorrow is another day, bitch!
